By Gregg E. Brickman
I sit in my living room, listening to my dog barking in the yard, wondering what will become of him. Will he meet an end similar to mine? I hope it will be better, gentler. The placement of my beloved dog won’t be my decision to make. At least that much I’ve decided. I know it sounds cruel, but one product of powerlessness, I believe, is indecision—the other is rage.
I turn the 351PD Smith & Wesson over in my hand, inspecting the engraving, running my fingers over the AirLite logo. I’ve never fired the weapon, though I took my time selecting it.
Thinking back, even that day at the gun show I was indecisive. I’m sure the salesman wondered what I wanted with such a gun. When I entered the Super Marksman booth at the Convention Center, I said, “I’ve come to buy something inexpensive, efficient, effective.” Words often used to describe me.
“To protect myself,” I said. “You know how the world is.” The exquisite lines of the small gun caught my eye and I pointed to it.
The salesman sold me on the power of the 351PD. I thought it fitting. Expensive, yes. I’m worth it, I thought.
For now, the revolver isn’t loaded, though an unopened box of .22 Magnum cartridges sits on the glass-topped end table next to a crystal candy dish. I pick up the soft cloth from the cleaning kit the salesman included as a bonus, take my time removing the smudges from the smooth black finish, then lay the gun next to the ammunition.
The first day I started my new job, I was filled with hope, drunk on the possibilities. Though the position wasn’t what I wanted or deserved, I was sure things would work out.
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